Creepy Confession

So I have a confession to make, one that might appear weird or creepy to some. And is certainly not what people expect of a positive fabulous woman to be doing! Are you ready to hear it? ok here it goes: I enjoy reading obituaries in the newspaper. I find reading about the people who pass on, especially the younger ones, instantly gives me perspective and brings me back to what’s really important in my life. In just a few minutes, I am reminded of how insignificant some of my daily struggles and challenges truly are. So what if I don’t ever catch up with all my email? and what if the laundry waits a couple more days? Is it really critical that I call people back right away? At the end of the day, who really cares…as long as the kids are happy and healthy, and I’m semi-sane. I eventually get the important things done! Right?

This reminds me of one of the most important AHA moments in my life. I attended a funeral several years ago of someone I worked with who died tragically in an accident. The church was filled to capacity and you could sense the loss everyone was feeling. It made me pause and ask myself a question that I’ve asked myself many times since, “when I die, what will people say about me in my eulogy?”.  I knew that they’d say that I was a good person, a loving mother and a loyal friend. Those are all really important things, but I also knew that I wanted to leave a powerful legacy behind that goes beyond my immediate friends and family. It got me thinking, and I started creating my life backwards. If I wanted to be remembered for being  adventurous, passionate and a risk-taker, then why wait to live life that way? It’s not easy creating a life by design, but if you do the work and know who you are, what you want to leave behind and how you’d like to be remembered, it really eliminates much of the fluff and gets you focused on the big stuff. Nothing good comes easy, but oh the rewards can be quite amazing!

Growing pains

Arghhhh, I have to admit that I haven’t been feeling too positive or fabulous the last few days…expectations, challenges, growing pains, bumps, detours, etc. While I know this is all “normal” and part of everybody’s journey, a part of me feels angry, disappointed, frustrated…and yes, challenged to stay positive and fabulous! Oh the expectations!

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had my share of loss and pain over the years…as much if not more than the average woman. I have struggled with the belief that nothing comes easily to me, that I have to suffer to get what I want in life. Yet the last couple of years things seemed to have shifted, and I was starting to let go of that negative self-limiting belief. Everything has been going right, things coming my way every day, feeling totally on top on my game. Then come the pains of growing a business and taking it to the next level, a couple of hiccups….and BAM, I’m back to my old friend, that familiar voice that tells me that life is a struggle, that I have to suffer in order to get what I want. Ugh, go away you stupid monster, leave me alone and let me find my own way. After all, I am a Positive Fabulous Woman. Oh yes I am.

This too shall pass.

Commitment without attachment

My head has been spinning lately with the launch of the website, planning all sorts of events, working with sponsors, etc. I can honestly say that I’ve never had this much on my plate. But gosh I love it, so not complaining. The only “problem” is that I’m trying so hard to practise detachment, and that is so hard to do when you’re as committed and devoted to something like I am about my work.  Everyday I take a few minutes to be still, breathe and be grateful for all that I’m blessed with. And everyday I ask for guidance on how to let go and detach of the outcome while feeling so totally committed to the cause.  Living in the moment is awesome, but I’m finding it harder and harder as the love intensifies and the passion deepens. Tough stuff I tell you. But this is my spiritual practice as much as it is my work, so it’s all part of the journey. Ok back to work now!

On the edge of my seat

Holy cow, after months of planning and work, tomorrow is finally the day this site is being launched onto the world! I am sooo excited, yet so anxious and eager to hear what the feedback will be like. Will everyone love it or hate it? Hmm, I can’t wait to hear it all (ok I prefer the good to the bad, but I’ll take all constructive criticism). I feel like I’ll be exposing myself in a way, which is so weird and odd…but it is what it is. Anyway, in less than 24 hours this beast will be unleashed and I’m (almost) ready to see how far and wide it will go!

Here’s to infinite possibilities & outrageous success!

One of those days…

Do you ever have one of those days when you wake up on the wrong side of the bed. Nothing goes your way, and you’re feeling cranky and edgy. And yes, as women we can blame much of that on hormones. Anyway, I think I’m having one of those days. I have a long list of to-do’s, yet it’s 11:00 am and I’m ready to go back to bed. Yep, even positive fabulous women have “off” days. It never seizes to amaze me how many people think that I’m cheery and pumped ALL the time. I’m only hu-woman, still have to deal with the usual stresses; kids, financial, health, family, etc. And yes those crazy hormones!

So what’s a positive fabulous woman to do? well I am aware of my mood, so I try really hard not to make big decisions until this passes. I am extremely careful when it comes to my dealings with other people, especially those I love and cherish the most. So I focus my energy on interacting less and doing more. Sometimes it helps to get some exercise or indulge in a yummy treat (chocolate never disappoints). I breathe and practise self-care — and most importantly –  give myself the space to just be. You know what, it generally passes pretty quickly and before I know it I’m back to being the bubbly cheery Katia that most people know. So for all those of you who’ve asked me what my secret is, the answer is simple: self-love and acceptance.

Now off to grab my second piece of chocolate…

Say it like it is…

I hate to start off with a rant, but it really (really) bugs me when I hear of some spiritual people always putting down media and show off their lack of interest in the news and current events. Are we not meant to exist in reality and be connected to what’s going on around us? how are we to relate to others around us if we don’t really understand what’s going on in the world.

ok I admit it, I’m a bit of a news junkie. I’m not suggesting everyone needs to be like me. But c’mon, a certain level of knowledge as to what’s going on is not only helpful but necessary. Plus, it might be a good exercise for those spiritual types to apply their knowledge and practices to remain strong and rooted in the now — despite the possibility of bad news, crime, wars, etc. We don’t exist in a bubble, this is life!

The blogging struggle

Yes I know, I need to start blogging. Why have I been resisting this so much, I’m not quite sure! It’s not like I don’t have anything to say — probably too much in fact. Perhaps a part of me is worried about sending any messages out there that may not be totally positive, may be I’m worried about being viewed as too political or radical? perhaps both.

One thing I know is that this is it — today is the day I start putting my thoughts, ideas and ramblings down here. And if you’re inclined to visit us and check it out, then that would be just fab!

’till next time!

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