Coming clean

So I’ve fallen off the wagon, again. I’m embarrassed to admit it and don’t yet fully understand why it happens. ok before your imagination starts running wild, I should tell you that I’m referring to my writing & blogging. My life has been hectic over the last couple of months and I’ve had a really hard time getting to that place of calm to re-connect with my core to allow my creative juices to flow freely. And the truth is I’ve struggled with a few issues in the last little while; some old fears and doubts have suddenly re-surfaced, I’ve felt disconnected from my core more than I would like, and have distanced myself from some of my friends and family. The chatter in my head has been ongoing, irritating and frankly annoying!

Rather than resist it and fight my less-than-fabulous state, I tried to accept and allow myself to feel the pain and confusion instead. I spent a lot of time simply being, going where the emotions led me, while at times tried to gently steer myself to a place that felt familiar and safe. I found myself craving alone time and spiritual reading, and recognized that this was a definite sign that a part of me needed nourishment and care.

Like most things in life, it passed. I’m grateful of what I experienced and for all the insights and lessons. It’s all part of this magnificent journey we call life. I’m so very excited about the next chapter of my journey.  Like many of you, I have some really big plans and great ideas for 2010, and it would be an honour to share my reflections it with you, so I hope you stick around!

Much love,

K.